Really annoyd with everything atm. it's winter and i want to lose lost of weight this year for summer i'm sick of feeling this way i need to get the control i use tohave back i felt so mcuh better about myself when ihad it i can't explain it. i just feel so shit atm! : (
i need gym everyday and running i'm so f'ing over this shit it's not funny. i'lll do as much as i can this week but so busy going away thursday but come monday working my butt off to loose this fat! wanna lose 5kilos first goal ! :) wish me luck loves x x x

Current Mood: crappy

hey everyone well to be honest i haven't been on here since 2007. yes i no! sorry i still suffer from this disorder i'm now back just skinnier then before. x hope to here from you all soon ... xooxo

Current Mood: blah

i dont no if anyone else feels this way or ever has and im sry if i go on but i had no one else i could talk to. evertime i try to talk about this i just stop cause i feel like there is no point anymore.

i dont even no how i feel im like so sad i cry heaps but im mad but i dont no what. im living each day but i just dont think im doing anything or going anywhere. i feel confused lots and hurting so so bad i cant put it into words how i feel. i just want to leave and never come back i just dont no what to do or who to go to. i cant talk about this i just cant find the words. the feelings are there but im on holidays and school gose back soon but then what things will only get worse i know it will im alone and im staying here i know it. my heads every where and all i seem to do is fail and brake harder. im not happy and just want to be i put on a smile and laugh but i want to feel the way i act i dont want to play around anymore where am i headed. no where thats all.....................

sry for going on i just i dont no!! i just dont no anymore. : (

Current Mood: confused

ohk sry im posting again lol two questions..???

ohk on my body the main 2 places i hate are my Thighs and stomach, on my stomach its mostly just love handles there gross so if anyone could help with burning the fat on my thighs and love handles would be great thanks xxx

and one more. im thinking ill just do a  celery and now and then have some carrot all day cause a fact that you can sit on the couch for the rest of your life eating celery and you will burn fat not gain it.so yea celery i think and for dinner if mum makes me eat a bowl of veg what do you all think??

hey all well today i started my fast but went out with my sister and had a milo so i started again today im really upset about it so at 3:00pm i started my fast going till i lose 20kilosi also am sick and cant do anything upside i dnt wan tto eat down side i cant get to gym cause my head hurts when i move so im worried because i cant get to gym i wont lose anything but im still going to fast no matter what!!. stay strong everyone!!! xoxox

Current Mood: worried

hey all. im fasting for the next 3days. i feel so gross and sick.!! monday i start my 10day fast. hope it goes well stay strong!!! xoxo

Current Location: study
Current Mood: sick

 well today was my first day with the abc boot camp and im doing great i have had 397cals and at 7 i have gym for an hour so cant wait and all im having for rest of the night is water.lol tomorrow im going to the horse race its going to be so good no eatting tomorrow cause all they have there is shit all fatty food so im just going to fast. its aewsome me and my sisters went shopping for dresses they are hot!! lol cant wait. xoox

Current Location: study
Current Mood: excited

ohk so today was really shit i ate so much its cold and raining so i cant go walking or running so im mad about that but also my boyfriend was ment to be coming down this w/e but he had to go to hes mums cause of family problems. i love his family and wat there going throw i feel so bad for them. and i cant do anything about it cause there 4 hours away from my home town. its sucks i miss him heaps its been 2 and bit weeks since i seen him i no thats not really long but its driving me crazy!!! but i start abc boot came tomorrow so i hope it goes well. and tuesday im going to the horse races with my sisters i love my sisters to death there all i have.[xxO]

im so fat i have to lose 20lbs by the 20th of november : ( im scared im not going to get to my goal and summer is so close i hate it so much...

Current Location: study
Current Mood: angry

if anyone wants to talk. add me on msn! im on alot!! also im starting abc tomorrow if anyone would like to as well. we can email and talk to each other to keep each other strong. some support. i would love it if someone else would like to do it.xoxo

Current Location: study
Current Mood: disappointed

its such a shit day right its raining and clod so i can go running or surfing. and to top it off i have been eating al day im nothungry its just im bored so i eat..i feel so sick and hate myself for doing it. tomorrow is monday and im going to school starting abc boot camp. and tuesday i have the horse races. xoxo hope everyone else is doin better.xoxo

Current Location: study
Current Mood: sick